(Stream of Consciousness – Another Dark Night!)

¹⁷ It was by faith that Abraham offered Isaac as a sacrifice when God was testing him. Abraham, who had received God’s promises, was ready to sacrifice his only son, Isaac, ¹⁸ even though God had told him, “Isaac is the son through whom your descendants will be counted.”  ¹⁹ Abraham reasoned that if Isaac died, God was able to bring him back to life again. And in a sense, Abraham did receive his son back from the dead. – Hebrews 11:17 – 19 

Our Connectedness…

We perceive Our connectedness through a dimly lit mirror… visions of Perfection in our imagination appear… the unfolding is right though the timing is wrong… a truth not revealed until time is long gone!

We share a connection, persisting and strong… doubt creeps in… perhaps this is wrong!  What is right awaits for the time to arrive… what might appear wrong requires the distance of time…

The hunger to connect draws us searching for more… and our eyes move us away from what the heart long for… so we go along half hearted looking back in our mind… having wandered away… a door slowing closing is open for a time…

As time goes by… a series of broken connections… a truth we cannot escape in the presence of our reflections… strung together by the collective efforts of sin and desire… quietly aware there is one drink to quench this fire…

Dwelling alone… time stands still…!  darkness falls to stillness… night terrors have lost power… redeeming the time of the witching hour… one does not fear when one has already lost what one fears losing… my shadow guides my steps… help my unbelief… seeking resolve… the eye of the storm brings a little relief…

Shackles of doubt loosen… believing again… the unconnected echo… a soothing voice in the wind… shekinah of glory in the crisp morning dew… a dark night endured… my heart sees a vision more precious than jewels…

Ever so close… hard to believe… a refusal to believe… morning brings a breath of life… a dream unfolding… hope abandoned finds me again… the will to believe watching from a distance…

The passing of time, connection is deep, the dream materializing…  unreal, unbelievable, unfathomable… now living at the edge of my perception… thank you Love for being my friend and shinning your light in my life…!

Words reveal her heart… touching her soul… intentions good… a genuine smile… intoxicating laugh… piercing blue eyes, a healing touch… seems unreal… echoes of a prayer answered in eternity…

Can this be real… it must be real… It needs to be real… to be lasting… to be enough… familiar ground… hoping it never ends… fully aware that it always ends… missing pieces connected… our lives now tangled… irresistible goodness and death the price of admission…

The guarded heart… free to leave, free to live… demons delighting in dismal distress… for what have I kept my integrity… a bond servants desire… a life sentence of choice… why not me…

A truth long ignored… daily life… a game of chess… a predetermined plan… a game lost before time began…

played out in time… an act of faith… a pawn of divine design…  as time expires… a setting sun… light casts a tapestry…  seen from afar as clarity arrives… some dreams are not for me!!

A whisper in the wind… inward tears… it happened again… the weight of shame… internalizing blame… a discontent heart, a disapproving mind… if only darkness would fall on my name….

… sigh